Over the weekend, an amazing woman who I have much respect for (and owe much of my current happiness to) stated that she didn't know why, but she still felt nervous around me. I was instantly amazed by her honesty, because I often feel this is something women feel, but would never admit. While I fancy myself of being a bit of a "guys girl", my relationships with other women have always unfortuantely felt a bit strained. Don't get me wrong, I like the idea of having female friends in theory...
I often feel so intimated by women in general, that I tend to seize up and concave into myself around them most of the time. There's a certain power that comes with all of those deeply resonating emotions and carnalized intuition, that it can be difficult to have relationships with them. Lana Del Rey says in "This Is What Makes Us Girls", we don't stick together cause we put our love first. And I truly believe that's the unfortunate truth of girl on girl friendships. I mean, why would our menstrual cycles constantly synchronize if there wasn't a naturally built in tendency to "compete for a mate". I truly believe competition is one of the worst human qualities. However, there can also be extreme opposition in which females share empathy and truly bond over difficult experiences. This is one of the most valuable human qualities.
There's an almost middle-earth sense of wonder to the fairer sex that makes me bewildered, intrigued, and anxious. Although, with women having a "Goddess Complex", especially when it comes to being courted, it really is no wonder why the mythical sort of intrigue can be perplexing. And sometimes unnerving.
Women want to be impressed. They want to be impressed by men, they want to be impressed by other women. There's often a bit of a confusing element to female friendships, and conversing with females in general. Where I don't feel the need to impress them, because to be put quite simply, I'm not trying to date them. I feel there's a bit of a girl-on-girl dismissal when you're not telling them your life story, and trying to win their approval. Perhaps it's that I give off a certain "vibe" that doesn't gel with heterosexual women. It almost makes me feel like I'm watching wild animals at the zoo when I see women conversing. Not so much because of their behavior, but because of my curiosity. For whatever reason, talking to men comes naturally. There's never a lack of fluid conversation, and the relaxed energy is palpable.
In my hairstyling career, I've been much of a therapist to women. I've been a therapist to corporate, over-worked, emotionally-stressed women. The energy that sometimes comes off of these women, I often have to take a step into myself, for the purpose of self-preservation. So I could continue to get through the day without being drained of my own personal energy. I'm one of those women who do not have the gift of false empathy, so when I choose to feel other people's emotions, I feel them in my physically in my own system. (Perhaps this is why working in a salon should not have been my career choice...)
I feel what women really want when I refer to a Goddess Complex, is the organic, elemental appreciation in all of it's entity. To be worshiped in both the physical and entire sense of the word. What women need is for people to stop perpetuating false notions onto women's emotions, belittling them into helpless creatures. Women bleed, birth, contract, and climax with their entire bodies. They are the magic that humans are made of.
Sometimes you think you're on the same level as other women, until you hear them speaking, and you have no idea how to follow up with this enthusiasm and charisma, that the best you can do is nod, and pretend that you're totally in that mental realm...when in fact, they are blowing your mind. You just hope they still respect you enough for having the same ideals and like-mindedness.
I never fully understood my intuition towards other women until I read Naomi Wolf's "Vagina". This book made sense of everything I had been trying to express into words, perfectly. I firmly believe every woman and man should read it. Especially is you're as equally perplexed or just interested in the fairer sex. It will change your life.
I often feel so intimated by women in general, that I tend to seize up and concave into myself around them most of the time. There's a certain power that comes with all of those deeply resonating emotions and carnalized intuition, that it can be difficult to have relationships with them. Lana Del Rey says in "This Is What Makes Us Girls", we don't stick together cause we put our love first. And I truly believe that's the unfortunate truth of girl on girl friendships. I mean, why would our menstrual cycles constantly synchronize if there wasn't a naturally built in tendency to "compete for a mate". I truly believe competition is one of the worst human qualities. However, there can also be extreme opposition in which females share empathy and truly bond over difficult experiences. This is one of the most valuable human qualities.
There's an almost middle-earth sense of wonder to the fairer sex that makes me bewildered, intrigued, and anxious. Although, with women having a "Goddess Complex", especially when it comes to being courted, it really is no wonder why the mythical sort of intrigue can be perplexing. And sometimes unnerving.
Women want to be impressed. They want to be impressed by men, they want to be impressed by other women. There's often a bit of a confusing element to female friendships, and conversing with females in general. Where I don't feel the need to impress them, because to be put quite simply, I'm not trying to date them. I feel there's a bit of a girl-on-girl dismissal when you're not telling them your life story, and trying to win their approval. Perhaps it's that I give off a certain "vibe" that doesn't gel with heterosexual women. It almost makes me feel like I'm watching wild animals at the zoo when I see women conversing. Not so much because of their behavior, but because of my curiosity. For whatever reason, talking to men comes naturally. There's never a lack of fluid conversation, and the relaxed energy is palpable.
In my hairstyling career, I've been much of a therapist to women. I've been a therapist to corporate, over-worked, emotionally-stressed women. The energy that sometimes comes off of these women, I often have to take a step into myself, for the purpose of self-preservation. So I could continue to get through the day without being drained of my own personal energy. I'm one of those women who do not have the gift of false empathy, so when I choose to feel other people's emotions, I feel them in my physically in my own system. (Perhaps this is why working in a salon should not have been my career choice...)
I feel what women really want when I refer to a Goddess Complex, is the organic, elemental appreciation in all of it's entity. To be worshiped in both the physical and entire sense of the word. What women need is for people to stop perpetuating false notions onto women's emotions, belittling them into helpless creatures. Women bleed, birth, contract, and climax with their entire bodies. They are the magic that humans are made of.
Sometimes you think you're on the same level as other women, until you hear them speaking, and you have no idea how to follow up with this enthusiasm and charisma, that the best you can do is nod, and pretend that you're totally in that mental realm...when in fact, they are blowing your mind. You just hope they still respect you enough for having the same ideals and like-mindedness.
I never fully understood my intuition towards other women until I read Naomi Wolf's "Vagina". This book made sense of everything I had been trying to express into words, perfectly. I firmly believe every woman and man should read it. Especially is you're as equally perplexed or just interested in the fairer sex. It will change your life.